"God, I wish I knew how to quit you"

--- Jack Twist to Ennis Del Mar
--- Me to You


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Brokeback Mountain is gawddamn brilliant.

It may be too slow for some, but it's perfect for me. I simply love its understated, subdued sense of longing, passion and desire. There's hardly any confrontational scenes between the lovers (just one in the entire movie), and I like that. That nothing explodes big-time in your face, but when it happens, it moves you because its true nature is weak and powerless - the exact spirit of a lonely, suppressed soul.

I'm not sure if I buy into the "it's simply a love story" shit; the way I see it, sexual passion and love are irreconcilable in this episode. In almost everything, I guess.

Which makes me think.

Ennis Del Mar and Jack Twist are on the pathway to no return after one night of released pent-up desire culminating in intense physical pleasure. And like an addiction, they can't run away from it.

Me? I'm not sure if there was ever an "us" to begin with, and there's definitely no sexual tension to speak of; I'm not in love with the dude because he turns me on the right way.

Why then can't I quit him?

It makes everything, all this that I have, a joke.