I'm just obsessed with one thing these days.

Thinking about the best, least messy way of doing myself in.

I know it sounds very morbid, and might probably scare you quite abit, but let me assure you there's nothing to be afraid of.

Why should you be afraid of something that will release me?


***


I hope that, one day when I'm gone, some kind soul will take this url and distribute it to all my friends and family, to all who know me and to all who want to find out why.

Because I want them to know that, it's not their fault. Or anyone's.

If ever for a moment, they think that it might have been something which they have done, or did not do, let me assure you that it's not the case.

You're dealing with someone who's sick in the head here.

And this sick person's just tired of all the pretence. It's taking too much a toll on her.

So, if you would be kind, she'll like to take a rest now, thank you very much.


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Since it's been my practice for previous years, I don't see why I shouldn't keep up with the tradition now.

Here's a list of all that I've received for my birthday for Year 2006, courtesy of all who bother to care (or care to bother):

1. One bouquet of purple tulips, nicely wrapped and tied in ribbons
2. One bottle of Ralph Lauren's Romance
3. One Guess? wallet
4. One gigantic, white doggie soft toy
5. One box of Famous Amos cookies in a teddy-imprinted tin box, with 2 stems of hearts
6. One long clutch (in white)
7. One pink shrug from Mango
8. One $50 cash voucher from Guess?
9. Two birthday cards
10. One bodywash from BodyShop
11. One bodywash from (I'm not sure where or what)
12. One wooden lantern (from Vietnam)
13. One Lancome cosmetics set (contains mascara, green eyeshadow and wrinkle remover)
14. One The Corpse Bride set (contains mini figurines of Emily, Skeleton Girl & Boy, Scraps the dog, Black Widow the spider, Maggot the well maggot and Mr. Skeleton)


Guess which is my fave present of all the above?

And, because I've done this before, I'm gonna do it again.

Birthday greetings via sms from:

1. Kat
2. Ce Yu
3. Xinyu
4. JL
5. Shayne
6. Boon
7. Cheryl
8. Marie
9. Song
10. TC
11. Ding
12. YC
13. Diana Tay

Don't ask me what's the point of the above. Just.don't.ask.