I lost my motivation a long time ago and I don't know how to retrieve it.

She's right. I have no goals in life now.

And that is why I am perpetually unhappy.

Because there's nothing to be happy about.

I need to get out and start afresh.

Remaining at where I am is akin to not doing anything for myself, not improving the situation and being perpetually "stuck in the rut".

It may not be true that I'll be any happier if I leave this place, but I think it's worth a shot.

Because it's not just about leaving a job, it's a metamorphosis of sorts.

I want to leave the old self behind. The past. Him.

I want to say hello.