I think my blog's pathetic.

There used to be a time when I'll blog about almost anything and everything, a time when I was utterly forthcoming in my words and when I spared no punches.

A time when this space served as a great catharsis, a refuge, a place I'll always return to and once I've left my mark, everything will seem alright again.

A time when I'll blog almost everyday, sometimes even twice a day, and I never found it to be a chore.

A time when I actually delighted in being a public display, when I'll (gawd!) "advertise" my blog to friends.

A time when I was completely confident of my verbal prowess and superb writing abilities.

Things just aren't the same anymore.

I'm not sure what changed. Me or the blog.


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I'm tormented at work.

I'm making such a huge risk whenever I write about work, because it's such a sensitive issue and lotsa companies just aren't prepared to have their employees typing away and displaying their grievances to the world.

But, since I've already said it, here goes. I'm tormented at work.

You cannot just imagine how utterly bored and uninspired I am every single waking day.

This is actually comparable to going for Math class back in the days of yore.

That's how terrible the situation is.

And it just doesn't help that I'm currently in a "hermit-like" state.

Meaning I actually seriously believe-it-or-not enjoy just staying at home the whole day doing nothing but reading sleeping and watching telly.

To prove my point, I'd purposely omitted all punctuation in my last sentence.

And I'm A-OK with not going out shopping, prowling the streets as if I'm in search of gold (or a rich hubby), or not meeting ANYONE for that matter.

That's how seriously steeped I am in hermit-zone.

The only time when I had no choice but to look for people to hang out with was when I desperately wanted to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory like a gazillion times and I didn't want to do it alone.

If one day, I can get past myself to just begin watching movies on my own, I would have seriously abolished all reason for human companionship.

Yes, not even sex.

I can't wait for that day to arrive.